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When we graduated high school, we planned to leave fear and expectations behind so we could finally live in our truth, but before we got the chance, our families were attacked and her father was murdered. By morning, she was gone, leaving behind nothing but questions and a silence that haunted me for years. As I rose to the top of the hierarchy, I never stopped searching for the woman I loved.

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