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I've spent so many months alone. Being with him makes me feel good about myself.

After all that happened, I should be running far away from Mr. Montero, but for some reason I can't help but cling to him. Yes, I have my issues, my flaws. I'm only human.

And he's just a man. A man I've just so happened to fall for.
A man full of lies and way too many secrets.

A man I shouldn't even have in my life, but instead I'm sticking around.

Why? Because, as I've said before, I'm not okay. I have issues I'm not sane. I can be so foolish at times.

I like my time spent with him.

But how long will this last? With each day, it gets more and more difficult. It gets harder to be around a man who isn't willing to tell me the truth.

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It's hard to stay in your right state of mind when the man you're being penetrated by is everything you never thought you could have.

It's hard to hold onto reality when he hands you an undeniable escape.

He brings you to life and makes you forget who you truly are. There are rules and boundaries of course, but you consider it perfect, nonetheless.

The truth is I'm not completely sane.

I'm not okay.

I have issues.

And he knows this, yet he constantly leads me on.

He dominates me.

He indulges in me.

He craves me.

But he and I both know how this arrangement will end. I will lose control.

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